Wednesday, February 27, 2013

Fear And Loathing In The E.R.

Yep, tis true! I present the evidence for your consideration. Another few days of gasping for air....another trip to the E.R. They performed all the proper and necessary tests to rule out any heart problems, and then began administering meds. I got the written report on the X-Rays, and would have posted the images but I can't get over to pick them up right now.

I am alive...mostly.

Went to a presentation last night with a company called Ambit Energy. There program operates in a number of states, most notably Texas, and coincidentally New Jersey. In general, I take a jaundiced eye to these types of meetings, but came away impressed and keenly interested. Had some time at it's conclusion to talk with some people who have been involved since the beginning, as well as,  recent recruits.

Should I be able to get involved with this, I can market it in any state they are working in, for saving people significant cash for electric and gas utilities. It would offer a steady and significant income based on history and 3rd party evaluations of the company.

Here's the thing......
My situation regards my lungs limits any number of income opportunities from being within my abilities. Given my age and C.O.P.D. malady, it would be a direct act of God for me to be offered a position other than a Walmart Greeter or some manual labor. The FiOS job I lost when I contracted Pneumonia offered a nice bit-0-cash while it lasted, but doing door to door is not in my realm anymore.

I am a very good salesman. From building and selling my own company, to my time in automotive, to pitching projects and consulting....I did pretty well.

This opportunity is selling, certainly. But I can do so on many levels, including Social Media, YouTube, this blog, etc. I already have people to approach in N.J. and an entirely new state to do my best in.

I can make a go of this. Here's the other thing.....

I had to break down and apply for disability. Right now, hand to God, I have 98¢ in the bank and 23¢ in my pocket. That's it...and out of gas. I am blessed to have a place to park and work and sleep and shower...

You get the idea.

What I am looking for is a loan. I mean, someone wants to send me funds, I am grateful beyond belief and accepting of that gift. However, I have a substantial outlay to deal with. There are some meds to get, a water pump needed for the van, co-pays for my Pulmonary Specialist, and day to day expenses to be met. I am not approved for disability yet, but is in the pipeline.

This is the first thing to come along for me that shows significant promise and has my juices flowing. I had all but given up on gaining any real ground again in my life, throw in the towel, and languish. Learn to live with my disease and wait for the last sunset.

Now I am feeling different. If anyone reading this is interested in helping, PLEASE reach out to me via email, so we can connect one on one. I am willing to give out my phone number, just not anxious to publish it here. Of course there is also the PayPal button , screen right.

Also, if you are interested in this program as a customer, please email me for that as well. Once I get on board with this program, I can start saving you money on all things energy.

The email to use for all is:

I ask you all keep me in your prayers and thoughts for this to work out for me. I have seen the power of those efforts have a positive impact in my existence!

And of course, thanks for following me and reading my mash ups here.

Until next time....

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

I Am Going To Address This ONCE.....

UPDATE 02/23/13 8:37 P.M.C.S.T. : 

Back in the E.R. Lungs have not been doing so well at all these last few days. Awaiting diag to see what's what. Wish me luck.....

There have been a number of comments left on here from people who represent opposite ends of the spectrum speculating on my sincerity and honesty. Some merely chastise....then there are ones like the following from the ever popular and cowardly “Anonymous”. It reads as follows.....

I am so happy to hear you are back in that van and not in a motel.

Sorry to hear people are still helping you with van bills and other expenses.

You are not to sick to work, you don't want to work and who would if they had others paying all their bills.

To begin with, this person and I are in agreement on one thing. I am glad to be out of the motel as well. I didn't like having the accumulating debt. Thus...I am free from that.

Consensus, though, ends there.......

Obviously this individual missed some history here. After arriving in Texas and subsequent to Beck's “Restoring Love” event, I had a job within a days. It involved a lot of outdoor work and walking in Texas level temps. I enjoyed the exercise, fresh air, and I had a new audience everyday. That particular gig was not a good fit product wise, thus I sought and found employ elsewhere.

Same kind of gig, different product, and the effort was producing results. I was paying my own way, living in Dallas in a nice place, and moving my life along.

Then I started having major breathing problems. I couldn't go one home to the next without gasping. Even after catching my breath and talking with someone, I would get winded sitting down simply from speaking.

On November 10th I was diagnosed with C.O.P.D. and a side of Pneumonia. It explained a lot. I provided my X-Rays here as well as subsequent reports on my deteriorating health. I posted the results of my breath tests and the meds I am on. Needless to say, I could not continue with the job I was working.

I am still under a specialists care and involved in a Medical Trial for an experimental treatment for my malady. I had tried getting back into another field I have extensive experience in, Automotive, and had a couple of interviews with some shops. I found being around the fumes that are a absolute part of that business is integral to the industry, made breathing difficult at best. I have been sending out applications and answering ads as best I can. Not having net access as I was enjoyed slows this efftort considerably.

As for me exaggerating my condition and being less than honest regards what I deal with physically, that's nonsense and frankly ignorant, as one need only read what I have written, but also provided documentation to back up what I presented in this forum. There are days I walk across a room and I am short of breath, other days is almost normal and can get around and do stuff.

It's the nature of the malady......

My meds are being revised and altered to see what will work best for me. In the meantime, I mention here what I could use help with and hope for the best. Understand this.....I EXPECT NOTHING!!! I am deeply appreciative when support comes along. However, with but a few personal and familial instances, NO ONE OWES ME ANYTHING!!!!! They offer because they want's that simple.

Don't like it? There are other blogs you can read. Please feel free to explore them....

I stated here recently I moderate the comments left. I don't publish the overly complimentary ones, as well as the pretty venomous. Thing is, the nasty ones get over the top and generally come from the same couple of people. Even though they post without revealing themselves, or using made up names, their visits are time and date stamped with I.P. Address and location. Just recently I had one of my “fans” get mail from their I.S.P. telling them to behave...... or else.

Bottom line, what I state here regards my status and health are what's real. My feeling is that for me to lie now, becomes my downfall later. In the future, anyone who doubts my sincerity can go back and read through my blog for themselves.

All that being said....I want to get back to my meandering writings and observations. Thanks for your loyalty and indulgences these last few years.

God Bless.

Until next time.....

Sunday, February 3, 2013

Super Bowl Sunday!!!!

I have no dog in this hunt...but will enjoy watching the game.

Went to services again this morning and, frankly, the topic shook me up a bit. Not so much the message...although that was powerful....but my mind had been leading up to what he had to teach the last couple of days.

Like a One, Two Punch!

On the annoyance front......

I've had this stalker for a couple of years now. This guy, originally from Warren County now in North Dakota, is a petty little man who just likes to harass. He is known about the internet as Uber Trolling Flame Thrower and not mentally all there.

He was entertaining. I would sometimes tweak him a bit, like when you tap the glass at the monkey cage, and watch him rant.

Annoying but he was basically harmless.

Well..he upped the ante and so did I.

I reached out to his I.S.P. and they put him on notice. A couple of sites he went to create or stalk either were forced down or he is being completely ignored.  He creates different persona's and has conversations with himself.

He tried convincing me he was a mutil millionaire and his...."' are worth more than your house was!"

I knew it was the same nutcase from N.J.

Anyhow......I see he is using a misspelling of my name and....this is new...a female persona  to cause trouble. Get a hobby there, Richie!!!! This needs to end , here.

I never knew Google and such could be as good a friend as it has become.'s game....I don't care who wins as long as the commercials are a hoot and the game exciting.


Until next time....

Friday, February 1, 2013

Fairly Brief Update....

I have just a little bit of internet time....

Lost the room. The van needs a water pump, head gasket, lower seal..yadda yadda yadda.

I'm mostly screwed!

I do have a place to stay. A friend of mine asked his landlord if I could stay for a few nights and, after talking with me, said sure. He is a Tongan Christian Minister building a new church here. Took out to a buffet lunch today..haven't had that in eons.

So, I am safe and housed for now. Just no internet there.

As for the's hurtin'! Hopefully I will find some work and get all in order. I still have my outstanding balance with the motel to deal with.

In the meantime, please keep good thoughts for me, as well as, ongoing prayers. And, if inclined...the PayPal button is working.


Until next time...